--- title: The Wall Behind the Wall The Weight Corrections Officers Hide description: Corrections officers carry invisible burdens behind the wall and at home. It's time to break the silence. 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Gray** Sometimes the strongest walls we build aren't made of concrete or steel. They're built from everything we've survived but never talked about. As corrections officers, we spend our careers working behind walls, fences, locked doors, and razor wire. Those barriers are designed to protect us, protect the public, and maintain security. But there's another wall that many of us build. It's invisible. It's the wall we put up when someone asks how we're doing, and we respond, "I'm good," even when we're not. It's the wall we hide behind when something happens during a shift that we can't get out of our heads. And sometimes, it's the same wall we carry through our front doors when we finally make it home. **The wall behind the wall.** ### When Being Strong Becomes Being Silent In corrections, we're trained to maintain control, stay alert, make decisions, and respond when things go wrong. We're expected to remain calm when everyone around us is losing control. But what happens when we're the ones struggling? What happens when the person everyone depends on needs someone to depend on? For many officers, the answer is simple. We say nothing. We convince ourselves that what we're experiencing is just part of the job. We tell ourselves someone else has it worse. We don't want to appear weak, become a burden, or give anyone a reason to question whether we can still do our jobs. So we build another wall. Brick by brick. Incident by incident. Shift after shift. Until eventually, the walls meant to protect us begin separating us from the very people who care about us. ### When the Wall Follows Us Home The shift ends. The uniform comes off. The keys and radio are put away. But the weight doesn't always disappear. Sometimes we sit in our vehicles before walking into the house because we need a few more minutes to ourselves. Sometimes our spouses ask what's wrong, and we say, "Nothing." Sometimes our children want our attention, but mentally we're still somewhere inside the facility. We're physically home, but emotionally we're still behind the wall. And the hardest part? **Sometimes we believe we're protecting our families by keeping them outside that wall.** We don't want them worrying about what we've seen, what we've experienced, or what we're carrying. But silence can create distance. Our families may see someone becoming quieter, more withdrawn, irritable, or emotionally unavailable without understanding why. What we intended as protection can become isolation. ### The Battles Nobody Sees Not every officer who struggles shows it. Some are the ones making everyone laugh during briefing. Some are the officers who volunteer for overtime. Some are supervisors who spend their shifts making sure everyone else is okay. They show up. They perform their duties. They make decisions. They protect their coworkers. And nobody realizes how much they're carrying. We often recognize when an officer's performance changes. But do we recognize when the person behind that performance is struggling? Do we ask questions because we genuinely want to understand? Or do we wait until the problem becomes impossible to ignore? **Sometimes the officer who appears to have everything under control is the one who desperately needs someone to ask how they're really doing.** ### Why I Started Asking Questions When I started Behind the Wall, Beyond the Game, I knew something about our profession. We're a quiet bunch. We don't always talk about what happens behind the walls. And we certainly don't always talk about what happens inside ourselves. I also knew something about myself. I had built walls of my own. I wanted to find a way to reach through the barriers that I had spent years standing behind. I didn't know exactly how to do that. Then I published my first question post. I asked corrections officers to share their experiences. And something happened. Officers started answering. Some shared experiences they had carried for years. Others responded to fellow officers, offering encouragement, understanding, and support. I began realizing that maybe the problem wasn't that officers had nothing to say. **Maybe we simply hadn't created enough places where they felt comfortable saying it.** That realization changed the direction of Behind the Wall, Beyond the Game. It also changed something in me. I began discovering that by helping others find their voices, I was beginning to find my own. **I found a way to begin healing by helping others heal.** ### Breaking Down the Wall Doesn't Mean Telling Everyone Everything I want to make something clear. Nobody owes the world their trauma. You don't have to share your most difficult experiences on social media. You don't have to explain every bad day to your coworkers. And you don't have to tell your family every detail of what happens inside a correctional facility. But you deserve to have someone you can talk to. Someone who listens without immediately judging. Someone who understands that asking for support doesn't make you less capable of doing your job. For some, that person may be a spouse, friend, trusted coworker, peer-support member, counselor, or another person who has earned their trust. For others, the first step might simply be admitting that they've been carrying more than they realized. And that's okay. Breaking down a wall doesn't happen overnight. Sometimes it begins by removing just one brick. ### A Message to Supervisors If you're in a leadership position, I want you to consider something. You can have an officer who meets every expectation, completes every assignment, and never complains. That doesn't necessarily mean they're okay. Leadership requires more than monitoring performance and enforcing policies. It requires knowing your people well enough to recognize when something changes. It requires creating an environment where asking for help isn't automatically viewed as weakness. And it requires understanding that sometimes an officer doesn't need another lecture. Sometimes they need someone willing to listen. We cannot promise to solve every problem our officers face. But we can make sure they don't have to face every problem alone. ### To the Families Waiting at Home If you love a corrections officer, understand that sometimes the silence you experience isn't because they don't care. They may be exhausted, overwhelmed, or struggling to transition from the constant vigilance of the facility to the safety of home. That doesn't excuse hurtful behavior or mean families should ignore their own needs. It means both sides deserve understanding, communication, and support. You shouldn't have to guess what your loved one is going through. And they shouldn't feel that they must carry everything alone. Sometimes the most important conversation begins with two people admitting they don't know how to talk about what's happening. ### One Wall at a Time I recently asked corrections officers a question: **"Have you ever built a wall behind the wall, or even at home, just so nobody could see the weight you were carrying?"** It's a question that comes from a personal place. Because I know what it's like to build those walls. And I'm learning what it means to start bringing them down. I don't have all the answers. I'm still learning, still listening, and still working through my own experiences. But I believe something today that I wish more officers understood. **We can be strong without being silent.** We can be dependable without pretending we're invincible. And we can help others without having everything figured out ourselves. If you've built a wall that nobody else can see, I want you to know something. You don't have to tear it down all at once. You don't have to tell your story before you're ready. But somewhere, there may be someone willing to stand beside you while you begin. And sometimes, that's where healing starts. --- **Behind the Wall, Beyond the Game** *One Team. One Fight. No One Stands Alone.* **A question for our corrections community:** Have you ever built an emotional wall to keep others from seeing what you were carrying? If you're comfortable, share your thoughts. 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